(STAR) How did it come to this? (Or, what lovers must learn) - (PHOTO -Rhian Ramos and Mo Twister)

For the benefit of those who canít quite make heads and tails of the Mo Twister/Rhian Ramos issue that has eased the KC-Piolo brouhaha out of the showbiz headlines, here are excerpts from the video that Mo made although he denied having uploaded it on YouTube and Moís ďfinal statementĒ e-mailed to The STAR last Sunday.

First, the juicy bits from Moís video diary in which he seems to be talking to himself soliloquy style:

Itís 28th of July 2010, first time Iím doing this. I donít even know why. Um, maybe one day youíll watch this just to remember how horrible of a day it is. Youíre in Singapore, youíve been crying all evening because, tomorrow morning, you and Rhian will go to here and get rid of our baby. It doesnít matter naman what I think about it because this was her choice. I donít know how long youíll keep this as a souvenir, but this is a testÖ

This is wrong. This is the hardest thing... This is the hardest thing youíve gone through before and youíve gone through so much. And we have to blame our jobs for this? This industry that judges you for these things.

This business has make her believe that we have to take the life of our own child because no one will forgive her for this. That this job will ruin her. So we agreed that weíd come here and get it done. Because you love her and you just want her to be okay.

Itís not like Rhian is having an easy time with this, too. Itís hard on all of us. She said one day we will see this again. And maybe our jobs will be a little bit easier and more accepting about it.

One day youíll look at this video, 20 years from now. I donít even know if you will still be together and it will still hurt. It will still hurt like hell. Youíll be sorry for this your whole life.

Iíll be sorry for this my whole life. Iím sorry for the bad choice we are about to make. Itís hard for both of us. Nobody wants to do this.

I know other celebrities have been able to succeed after this problem, if it is even a problem. I donít know if itís a problem. But you know, her parents are tough on her. Her station, her channel, her manager is so tough on her that it has made her feel that having this baby is just (not an option).

I know Rhian is young. Maybe one day when she is older, that we wonít have to go through this. I donít blame her. The pressure on her is great. That I know she feels like she has no choice. So this is not your fault, Rhian. Itís not.

I know how hard it is to be you in here, in this situation. Itís July 28, 2010, and Iím still sitting inside the hotel ó the Ritz Carlton in Singapore. And weíve been fighting all night about this. Iím doing my best to try to keep you safe. And all this fighting is taking a toll on us.

I wish we could have this child. I donít want to do this. This job is so difficult. Itís so difficult, Iím sorry. Iíll be sorry foreverÖ

Again, one day, youíll watch this. Maybe when youíre an old man. Youíll remember how difficult today was. And I hope you watch this and I hope by that time, Iíll be married and Iíll have a family that I can try to make it up to.

Youíre going to do something really wrong today. Iím sorry for that. This business is so hard. This business is so hard on its employees. I guess all businesses are.

I donít know. Itís our fault, I know. We canít really blame our job because other people did it. But I understandÖ

And here are portions of Moís ďfinal statementĒ (some sensitive parts deleted) aired in the Showbiz Rampa show of Noel Ferrer with Dehins Trillo and Boy Dale on 103.5 WOW FM last Sunday, Dec. 4.WOW FM is the sister company of Mo Twisterís MAGIC family.

There are so many questions to be answered. I donít even know where to start. I guess I can only hope in time, the whole and accurate story will be the one told. It may be too long to write now, but I know a short statement is in order.

Currently, Iím in disarray because of how fast and unexpected this has all become. Iím confused on whether I should do any interviews or just keep silent about the whole thing. One moment I think I should explain, the other I think I should shut up. I donít even know anymore.

I am disappointed about the video. Iím saddened about the rumors of its upload. Most of all, Iím ashamed at myself for the loss of our child. It was something I never wanted to happen. It went against my every value and until this very day, it makes me break down in tearsósomething I never have moved on from ó I donít think any parent can. Of course, it was done with utmost regret and I still wonder if I did all that I can to prevent it from happening. I thought I did, but I ultimately sided with the decision of my girlfriend, because I was put against a wall, to a point where I had to choose between the safety of the person that I love and the life of our child.

As you have heard or read in the video, I do not blame Rhian for our actions even though it was no one elseís choice. The pressure on her was too great. Am I upset at her? No. However, I do feel sad about the opinions of the people who are closest to her. You see, I am pro-life. I know we all have a different stance about this sensitive topic, but I am and have always been such. You may ask why I still allowed for it to happen and my answer is, I donít know. I thought I tried and prayed enough for the circumstances to change but it did not. And I know I will pay for this for the rest of this life and beyond.

To be completely honest, I am saddened by the reaction of her mom and manager. It has hurt me almost as much as the deed itself. I was shocked to learn of their stance regarding a future family member of theirs. When I went to them to seek their help and comfort, all the focus was put on her career and her body imageÖ

I made the video as a memento of this tragic event and that it should never happen again. It was meant for me to always remind myself that we paid an enormous sacrifice for this job and this relationship. I had no choice, I was not asked my thoughts ó it was just going to be the way it went. So I made videos and I kept all the memories that I could hold onto. Rhian knew about all of this. To a point where months ago, when they thought a lawyer was needed to aid in our breakup, that I was asked to surrender all of this ďproofĒ (as they called it) to them for it to be destroyed. I naturally gave in to their request, because for the second time, I chose my girlfriend over the memory of our child. I specifically asked them to not destroy it, to please return it to me 50 years from now when all this showbiz priorities and ďbrandingĒ wouldnít mean so much anymore. Along with my files, they took my computer and erased it in front of me.

This was all documented by her legal staff.

Until this very day, I love Rhian very much. We had to lie to the public about our ongoing relationship and I understood why. I would never want to hurt her and I tried my best to protect her when rumors of past abortions would surface. I aggressively pursued bloggers and other people who had info of past incidents and told them to be quiet. They know who they are. Unfortunately, we find ourselves here today. People are in possession of these videos. I know that the copies in my laptop were not the only ones destroyed. In a brown envelope, I handed these files to the family and begged them to salvage them. My laptop may have been compromised. I really donít know. There will be rumors for a long time, I am aware of that, but it will not hurt as much as the memory of what truly happenedówe lost our child and I have not moved on from it.

I am aware that GMA would like to prosecute me for this. I would like to apologize to the network for putting them in a bad light. This decision to have an abortion was not something the network instructed us to do. I was shocked that one of their officers had an unfavorable opinion about the pregnancy, but I am aware that her opinion doesnít reflect the opinion of the network. I understand that and I am sorry if the words on my ďvideo diaryĒ depicted otherwise.

Iím sorry to Rhian that our rollercoaster relationship ended the way it did. There was much more going on than people know. But I love you. I always have. The few people who knew about us also knew how much we cared for each other. We talked about marriage, we almost bought a home together a few months ago, we were planning to have the family we lost.

I donít have a message for the general public. This is the shortest explanation I can give for now. Maybe one day I can answer more, or whenever it is necessary. We all have a certain set of values. I will respect yours and I hope you will respect mine. This is me in the most honest and rawest form. I can only make one promise: I will never, ever agree to take the life of a child again. It doesnít matter if it isnít my body or my choice. I will not be put against the wall again. I should have stood my ground, fought harder, delayed it longer, encourage more people to talk her out of it. I regret being there. I regret it all.

A few comments: If Rhian did do it, didnít it make Mo an accomplice to the act? Shouldnít he also be held responsible for the loss of life?

Meanwhile, GMA is deadest on filing a case against Mo. Yesterday on 24 Oras, Rhian said that sheís asking for police protection, although she didnít make further comment about the issue. She is also filing a case against Mo.

Chief News Editor: Sol Jose Vanzi

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